Saturday, December 26, 2009

The Beginning of an Era

A friend pointed out, and it finally sunk in, that the end of 2009 isn't just a much needed clean slate—it's the end of a decade. I look back over the past ten years, and I'm so grateful. Rendered somewhat speechless. I have done and accomplished so much.

As I graduated high school in 1999, one could say I spent the decade after trying to find what it was that I wanted to do with my life. I went to college. Switched majors. Taught English in Japan. Graduated from college. Moved to Los Angeles. Lived three different lives there. Learned how to grieve. Got published. Learned how to celebrate. Saw Paris. Spent time in England. Returned to Japan. Got discovered via blogging. Got an agent. Completed my first work-for-hire. Got paid to write. Saw not one, but two different manuscripts go out on submission. Learned how to deal with 'No Thank You.' Moved back to Canada. Became a barista. Learned how to make jewelry. Did book-signings and readings. Went to author events—including meeting Aunty Melissa and Neil. Became a bookseller. Started a teen book club. Met the CEO of Chapters/Indigo and hand-sold her Beautiful Creatures.

And the truth is, I did get what I needed. Always. Even if what I needed was what I didn't want. I've learned what makes me happy and leaves me feeling fulfilled. I know what I can't tolorate—and what I actually can.

Maybe I don't quite know what I want to do when I grow up, but I know what will help me be a healthy and productive adult. There is always more to do. More to see and experience. Life is really just getting started as this decade pulls into its destination.

Part of what draws me to speculative fiction is an optomstic hope that we can make a better future. I firmly believe we have the ingenuity to solve our present problems. We'll never have a utopia, because I don't think human beings are built to be happy on a plateau. We're climbers. Survivors.

I suppose what I mean is that I look at my life and I choose hope. You can remind me of that if I seem to forget. (I know I do sometimes.)

Hello 2010, come on in. Sit down and make yourself at home. I can't wait to see what you've brought your hosts.


John Evans said...

Not really much for me to say but...


Leigh said...

What a decade for you! An amazing number of "firsts" in your life, ones you should be immensely proud of.

Cheers for a wonderful 2010~

Jim said...

Please don't grow up. Who will I play with?